Bitter* Goodbyes
The theme was 𝑒𝑙 𝑎𝑑𝑖𝑜́𝑠. I wrote about my relationship with this guy: atypical, unconventional, eccentric – some might say absurd or bizarre – but completely rare and unique.
This year, we’ve probably spent more time apart than we have together. It’s felt liberating for each of us to have this space to work on personal projects and venture out on personal pilgrimages… but at the end of the day, there is longing for each other’s presence and company.
Ten years have represented many lifetimes. We certainly don’t fit the mold, but it might just be what keeps us together. Te amo.
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How else to describe the last decade of our lives by each other’s side?
The number of times I’ve thought of starting over and cutting all ties
From the mess of misunderstandings, unmet needs, and desperate cries—
Echoes of the inherited pain that lurked stealthily, grasping for dear life.
Together, our time has been a continuous stream of bitter goodbyes;
To old patterns, expired beliefs, outdated stories, and self-sabotaging lies.
Each other’s mirrors, we’ve cracked and shattered, revealing more every time —
The rawness of love that holds our darkness, yet brings us closer to the light.
*𝘐𝘯 𝘊𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘦 𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦, “𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴” 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘻𝘦𝘥 𝘷𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘦, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴, 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴. 𝘏𝘦𝘳𝘦’𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘧 “𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳” 𝘴𝘰 𝘸𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘶𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵, 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘳𝘦𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱.
A poem by Phoebe YL
